I Can't Be The Only One...Can I?

Thirty-five. 35. Thirty-five? It's the new 25 right? Wrong. I made some bold (sober) decisions in 2013. I decided that becoming a mother was important to me, that I wanted to quit my career of the last decade, switch to the world of humanitarianism and find my passion while taking a four month extensive vacation to India, Thailand and Cambodia. HOWEVER, life is really awesome at throwing dodge balls at your face! I did get pregnant, three times in fact, all ending in miscarriages, one even being in the second trimester. I did quit my job and realized maybe my skills aren't transferable because getting an interview was equivalent to climbing Everest. It didn't take much to lose my savior complex. I have helped my community, my world around me, I just don't want to make it a career so that I can in turn, start to hate it. And then there is the search for 'passion'. I call BULLSHIT. Let's be 100 shall we. Your passion is what you are best at. I recently read a blog where the writers argue that people who say you need to find your passion are wrong. You need to instead become great at something and then find passion in it:

The “find your passion” idea is the kind of insipid, meaningless argument most frequently made by B-level speakers and middle managers who have nothing specific to offer. It’s just like “Keep a budget!” — an idea that sounds logical, but has no evidence to back it up. It simply doesn’t work. People love the “passion” idea because it allows us to wait for a mythical day where we find this elusive passion…and then ride off into the sunset on a white pony. I prefer a different approach: Becoming world-class at something, then letting the passion follow.

You can read the entire article here.

So I'm on the quest to becoming really good at something. But I sure do feel alone. I can't be the only one starting over, can I? I'm competing with teenagers for jobs, I'm learning how to 'learn' again in this world where people have turned 'instragram' into a verb. I am trying to connect to a community of people who only want to connect with their selfies. Starting over...maybe not such a good idea...wait and see.